I Just Woke Up From The Black Hole

You are born, go to school, and attend university in search of a husband. You get married — even if he is the worse man in the world — just so that others can’t say no one wants you. You have children, grow old, and spend the end of your days watching passersby from a chair on the sidewalk, pretending to know everything about life yet unable to silence the voice in your heart that says: “You could try something else.
- Paulo Coelho

It has nothing to do with what I’m about to write with a quote from Paulo Coelho, it’s just that I like dramatic words, rebellious yet helpless, I like the attitude of a loser who talks a lot because luck is just a myth.

I almost repeated the same stupidity when I was younger. I almost became the idiot the second time around. I was almost overcome by my own compassion. Disgusting, really disgusting. I hate it because I’m human because I can’t really know the intentions of people around me because I like to guess.

How does it feel to know, you carry a curse and you refuse to be healed. I managed to poison myself. And I laugh at those who are sick instead of loving them.

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I write because it releases all the ugliness that I could never say and all the beauty I can’t share in any other form or way.

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I write because it releases all the ugliness that I could never say and all the beauty I can’t share in any other form or way.

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